Tired

I’ve not written much since we went back to school in the fall. Every time I do, I sit at my computer, stare at my keyboard, and realized just how mentally drained I am.

Before I write anything else, I want to be very clear. I’m not complaining.

Okay, maybe I am a little bit.

But I’m not the kind of person who will continue doing something if I’m unhappy doing it. Just sayin’. I’m not unhappy. I’m tired.

COVID has changed so much in the past several months…teaching especially. In our school and district, most teachers are teaching both online and in person. I’m having to teach two Advanced Placement classes in two different formats with the same amount of time I had before the pandemic. It’s not perfect, but I’m managing. That’s good enough for now.

I have to keep reminding myself, this is just temporary. As hard as it is to see sometimes, this is not a permanent situation. Things will get better. I truly believe that.

One thing I will say, this teaching situation has forced me to think through the effectiveness and necessity of some of the lessons and activities that I’ve been using for a while. Some have been amended. Others have been completely thrown out.

At the end of the day, I have to remember that even though the school year may be a little (or a lot) unusual, one of the most important things I can do for my students (and myself) right now is help create some sense of normality. If I can do that, this will all be worth it.

Be well.